All Of This Smile Is Fake.

1 December 2012

Today date is very nice. Hm. But do you ever make a FAKE SMILE ? Yes of course, I know you do. Hmph. I just doesn't have a friend to tell all my sadness, happiness. Isn't it ? Or I just get jealous of others life. This is my problems. My feeling is playing hide and seek with me. And I don't like it. 

I CONFUSES WITH MY OWN FEELINGS. CONFUSE. I LOST IN MY MIND MAZE. CAN'T FIND THE WAY OUT. HELP ME PLEASE. HELP !

I always get HURT.  Not my body. But my HEART. it's get HURT by my OWN WORD. 

I keep LIE to myself, to MAKE SURE the TEARS will never DROP AGAIN to make sure that THE HISTORY will not happen again.

But the more I TRY to FAKE the FEELINGS, The MORE I feel THE PAIN. the MORE LIES I told, the more HURT I get. But if I don't, my life wouldn't be HAPPY even its FAKE

When my MOUTH say "I'M VERY FINE" you should NOT BELIEVE ME.  Of course I'm NOT even a MINUTE.

I always PRETEND to be such as STRONG GIRL,  but the FACT every night the tears DROP.

Keep telling myself to be CONFIDENT and MOVE ON.

Who WANT to be LEAVE, Who want to be FORGOTTEN, EVERYBODY HATE it, but they NEVER UNDERSTAND. I miss them, I want to MEET them, BUT the last day I meet ALL of them, It's already make me HURT. Don't they NOTICED about my FEELINGS ? I don't get it. Where is my MISTAKE ? What I do Wrong ? Why you never told me. Why this always happen ? Why you HURT me A LOT ? 

If I know this WOULD HAPPEN, I wish I NEVER MEET YOU. I wish I NEVER KNOW YOU. Fullstop.

Dear Past, please leave me Fast.